Thank you all, for your support.
I'm not in denial that my mother has to die sometime, it's just that I hate having to watch the long, slow decline. Honestly, I'd rather see her go quickly.
There were many times in my life when i did not feel i had a very close relationship with my mother but somehow now that mother/daughter bond is making having to bear witness to this excruciating.
It still surprises me because due to my mother's exceptionally good dietary habits, I ALWAYS thought she would live to be very old, into her 90s. I certainly felt she would outlive her mother, who died at 84 and did not have an especially good diet. And it's possible now my father will outlive her, although he has his own physical frailties and is an ex-smoker.
I need to find better ways to extricate my self from my mother, so I can handle all this stuff better. I'm thinking yoga maybe though in the past I found it boring.
Thanks
October 30th, 2015 at 11:11 am
October 30th, 2015 at 11:35 am 1446204936
October 30th, 2015 at 11:46 am 1446205595
Yoga, art, journaling. How is your coloring coming? My girls (Jr and Sr in high school) have been doing colorfy - an app that lets them color. They regularly send their pictures to me - they say that helps with anxiety (for the one definitely). Also my son with dyslexia/dysgraphia has been doing it, too.
Just take care and be mindful of signs of stress.
October 30th, 2015 at 12:56 pm 1446209781
I think your dedication to your mother is admirable and reveals your compassionate nature. You will probably not be able to really extricate yourself, but hopefully you can find ways to make the ride smoother. Anything that deeply absorbs your attention periodically would help, whether it's exercise or art or music.
October 30th, 2015 at 04:10 pm 1446221449
October 30th, 2015 at 06:44 pm 1446230679
You have been very loyal and dedicated to your mom. Please take care of yourself as well.
October 30th, 2015 at 10:24 pm 1446243884